Baby update: 38 weeks

I'm updating today after a Doctors appt. that i had earlier today. I want to remember all the little things and big things that happen over this journey, for my Child's sake and mine. My doctor is concerned about my blood pressure. He thinks the number is higher then it should be at this point, and a concern of his is Preeclampsia. Which is high blood pressure, protein in the urine or liver, kidney problems. Baby Center explains: " The condition most commonly shows up after you've reached 37 weeks, but it can develop any time in the second half of pregnancy, including during labor or even after delivery (usually in the first 48 hours)." 

A lot of times this occurs at the very end of pregnancy without any notice. I never had high blood pressure, so there's no major indications to look for, it does really come up quickly sometimes and without notice. It doesn't always mean induction or cesarean, but it can. It depends on the severity: " The more severe the condition and the earlier it appears, the greater the risks for you and your baby. Most women who get preeclampsia develop a mild version near their due date, and they and their babies do fine with proper care."  With all of this in mind, my doctor sent me to the Lab for blood work, and had an ultra sound ordered for early next week, if baby's size is too high, or the lab work comes back with negative results, He will have me go in right away, labor will be induced right away.  Hearing this was a bit heart breaking. I want to have a natural labor. But I'm keeping my mind open and know that blood pressure isn't something you mess around with. My highest priority is the safety of myself and my baby. I will put my desires on the back burner and just hope for the
Lord's Will in this story. I pray that His Will be done and that He leads my doctor and I, in the wisest choices. I came home and cried on the couch, and prayed. I left this over into the Lord's hands, and felt prompted to read Psalm 91, knowing it's been a source of comfort for me in the past. It reads: 

Psalm 91

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

3 Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

What a comfort these words are for me.